Futures

You realize you're growing up when your Facebook newsfeed reflects the new changes going on in your friends' lives. From getting engaged, to getting married, to having babies, buying new homes and getting promotions, all of these make you realize you're no longer children or adolescents, but instead venturing into the responsible lives of young adults. 

As happy as I am for all my friends experiencing these changes, I still can't help but wonder when and where my own life is taking me. It's very easy to get into a slump when you're witnessing others going through what you hope to experience some day. For example: I'm not engaged, married, and though I want children at some point in my life, I am nowhere near prepared for that role/responsibility/lifestyle yet. Buying a new home and getting a promotion would be great too, yet financially the first is unattainable and promotion would require having a full-time/steady job. 

I'm not going to lie, the pressure surrounding Jeremy and I about engagement, marriage, etc. continues to grow on a daily basis. Some days it gets to me, yet others it doesn't. I like to focus on how I feel on those latter days. On those days I am able to remove myself from others' relationships and comparing mine to theirs and remain genuinely happy that they are at that point in their lives where they're engaged and/or married, yet also be grateful that I have Jeremy, who continues to be my strongest supporter and source of encouragement on a daily basis. 

So what's the point of this entry? Another one of my ramblings I guess... but basically, the future that I envision myself having is already occurring for some of my friends, and while I continue sitting on the other side of fence thinking that "the grass is greener", I'm happy and content with the relationships and accomplishments that I have to keep me company. 

New changes are happening everyday for my friends, and I couldn't be happier for all of them.