New Look

I decided to change my blog look. I think it is a little easier to read and encourages interactions (and feedback) now.

To my long list of goals, I'd like to add writing a blog entry at least once a week. Granted, they might be boring since my life consists of an endless cycle of school and babysitting, but I'll try to make them interesting.

This week has been stressful with projects, essays, other school-related stress and learning that my teachers might go on strike. If the teachers go on strike for a week, it'll be a setback, but nothing that can't be made up. However, one of my classmates who attended this University for undergrad said that there was a strike once that lasted 6 weeks. 6 weeks is unacceptable and I don't want to end up having to stay an extra semester because of this. When I enrolled at this University I never realized that the RU screw from my undergrad years would end up being applicable to this university.

I'm also hoping I get to go have some Fall fun this weekend - pumpkin/apple picking, hayrides, and cornmazes would be great!

Besides worrying about not being able to go to class, I'm still just working hard at maintaining my GPA, enjoying my classes, working towards getting in better shape, and becoming more aware about myself.

Last thought - why do none of my friends update their blogs anymore!

Autumn Part 2

More reasons I love Fall:

Pumpkin & apple picking, hayrides, corn mazes, fall flavors, changing leaves, scarves, warm socks, hot cider and hot beverages, Halloween, Thanksgiving.

Autumn

I woke up this morning feeling cold and the first thing that came to mind was "good morning fall". Many people are upset that this cold weather snuck in and with its arrival came the farewell to summer. I'm actually happy about this first sign of the autumn season. Although I will probably complain about the weather being cold, I do enjoy taking my morning runs in this cool weather rather than feeling overheated by the end of my run. Fall also brings with it, good memories and the promise of exciting happenings.

Fall 2004: Started undergrad at Rutgers

Fall 2004: Meeting Jeremy

Fall 2004: Establishment of "Jeremy & Lindsay"

Fall 2006: Asked to join NAMI-RU

Fall 2007: Moved into Easton Ave for Senior Year

Fall 2007: Deans List

Fall 2008: Attended HUGE holiday party

Fall 2009: Carved my first pumpkin

Fall 2010: Started graduate program at Rider

Fall 2010: Ran my first 5K

Things to be excited about for this Fall:

- Jeremy's birthday

- Celebrating 7 years together

- Pascale being back in NJ

- Diane being in medical school

- Deciding where I'll be interning at for next semester

- Starting my second year at Rider

H is for Hypocrite

For the most part I find the actions and whines of girlfriends who blabber over missing their "sweetie pies" and "teddy bears" and "lovey doveys" to be overwhelmingly vomit-inducing. That said, I've realized in the past couple of days that I'm exhibiting behavior similar to these girlfriends I normally despise.

Jeremy left for Germany on Wednesday, and by Wednesday night I was already missing him. Sure there have been spans of time longer than the duration of this trip, where we are apart from one another. Sure he has had the privilege and honor of multiple city trips to share his knowledge, research and talent with others. So I was left Wednesday evening post-first grad class of the semester, feeling sad and confused. Sad because I missed my boyfriend, and confused because I never realized how much someone could miss another person so much. I'll try to keep more of my gushy vomit-inducing and sentimental thoughts for my private written journal (which I've had an increased use of), but just a few things I wanted to say after having analyzed myself and my feelings (damn the excessive self-reflection skills I've been learning in my program!):

1. It's not the duration of the trip that is bothering me, but rather the distance. We've been in different time zones before, so I still don't know why I'm so bothered by it, but I am.

2. I hate to admit that part of me is dependent (not to be confused with that obnoxious gf attitude of "omg i'm going to die without you" deal) on him to complete my day. When you're so used to even just being able to talk to and interact with a person on a daily basis, when that interaction becomes scarce or limited it really does affect you.

3. I'm so used to figuring out my schedules and plans to clear up some free time to hang out with him that it feels strange when I finally do have that vacant time from obligations and don't find myself being able to drive over to his apartment.

So I'm probably just over thinking this whole thing and am probably also stressed out with the semester having started this week. Basically, I miss my boyfriend, felt really sad about it, whined to myself about it, got annoyed at myself for whining about it, neared vomiting from realizing I was turning into a hypocrite, reassured myself that Jeremy is returning in a couple days anyway, and decided I had no other interesting problems, thoughts or concerns at the moment of which to update my blog. Pathetic? Maybe. Sincere and honest? Definitely.

Is it Sunday yet?