Loves and Hates

I've compiled a list of things I love and others I hate, but being that I don't hate anything maybe I should re-label this "Loves and STRONGLY Dislikes"...

1.) I LOVE my three best friends. Without them I do not know where I'd be right now and with them my happiness is at its peak. When we are apart we are still able to give each other the same amount of love and support that we share when we're together. They are there to share fun, amazing, and hilarious moments with, but also there to help me in any time of need. They are the few that I can cry my tears in front of and know that I won't be judged. They are the few that I can let out all my worries and thoughts to and give me great advice, feedback and hopeful thoughts. Many people always say that they have "the greatest friends in the world" and while that may be true, I know that I'm even more blessed because I have "the best" ones.

2.) I HATE feeling lonely even when surrounded by people. This hasn't happened much lately, but I think it's bad that it still happens. That feeling of being "invisible" or that no one around you can fully understand how you feel so you're on your own. I used to feel like this a few times in middle school and high school - walking down the hallways filled with hundreds of students but thinking how odd it was that I felt so alone.

3.) I LOVE being with Jeremy. For the most part our arguments/quarrels occur when we're apart and it's usually about us missing each other and wishing we were together. When you go from a relationship where you're used to seeing each other at least once a day it sucks to only see each other once a week. I'm just glad that our relationship is strong and we can both communicate our feelings to the other.

4.) I HATE not having decided what I ultimately want to do. I know lots of people change careers and we're all still young so "there's time". But with many friends busy in Grad programs or working full-time jobs, I feel inadequate and useless. I've been trying to stay positive and take time each day to think of all the good qualities I have, but it had been hard to do the past few months. Though, after talking to a few good friends, I am glad to say it's been easier to come up with things I like about myself...

5.) I LOVE little kids. Not in a pedophile type of way. But I love seeing little kids smile and I'm pretty sure their laughter can change lives. I've been spending time and babysitting my newest little cousin, Lillian a lot lately. She's 20 months old and is super adorable! I love that she's so curious about everything and though it may be a pain to have to follow her closely because of that curiosity, it's always so great to see her understand me when I explain what objects are. In addition, she's a really happy girl and always smiling and laughing. I think I'm fairly good at working with children too since they seem to be one of the few groups of people I have the patience for. I can't wait to have my own children someday...

6.) I LOVE warm weather. I spent a portion of the day helping my parents check out some awesome beach resorts in the Philippines and am getting more and more excited for this trip with them!! My parents decided they wanted to go visit a bunch of places in the Philippines that they've never been to/seen so I get to venture with them while we're there for about a month! So I'm looking forward to not only seeing cousins in Makati, Butuan & Agusan, but also spending a few days in Boracay, Cebu, Banawe, Baguio, and other places yet to be determined! I just wish I could go somewhere super warm NOW and not have to still be stuck with the winter cold. In the future I think I need to live somewhere near a beach.

7.) I LOVE hot tea and reading using candlelight. Two things that seem to really relax me.

8.) I LOVE board games, cards and puzzles. Whether it's a classic like Scrabble or a newbie like Cranium - I love it. Maybe I just like them because when you play these games you're usually with good company and sure to have good times.

Well, I'm sure I have plenty more LOVES and HATES, but it's almost 3am and I think I'm babysitting Lily again tomorrow so I should get some rest. I'm not really sure what the point of this entry was...if you're bored and want to leave a comment but have no idea what to write, fill this thing out for me. I tried to post it on facebook but no one completed it :P

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2: Where you and I met?
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6: Would I ever go skydiving?
7: Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me?
8: Am I funny?
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10: Can I sing?
11: The best feature about me?
12: What do I want to do more than anything?
13: What is the one thing you think I should do?
14: Do I have any special talents? If so, what are they?
15: Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else(what)?
16: Have you ever hugged me?
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18: Have you ever had a crush on me?
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