...before it all becomes the same old song" - The (Shipped) Gold Standard, Fall Out Boy
I find it funny that I've been listening to this song on repeat as a form of therapy. I guess the lyrics remind me that complaining and blaming my problems on "the world" will not make things better. That ultimately it's up to me to "fix" things, and make my life better. I'm slowly starting to work towards fixing my life.
I'm also starting to appreciate the free time that I have now and the freedom in my schedule to do what I please when I want. Never again in my life, or at least the life I'm envisioning for myself - full time job, full time family with 2 - 4 kids - will I have this much freedom. I'm slightly hesitant to take on a full time job at the moment because my parents and I are planning to vacation in the Philippines for 3.5 weeks in May and most places will probably not hire me once I mention "oh btw, I'd like to take a month off". I know I should be putting jobs and employment as part of my top priorities, but at the same time I have not been to the Philippines in over 8 years, and once I start working who knows how many more years it will take me to visit there again? I'd really like to see my relatives there...
At the moment I'm leaning towards going back to school for a MA in elementary education/teacher certification and eventually teaching first, second or third grade. I know I've been all up in the air with what I'd like to do, but I feel like this goal is more attainable than nursing would have been. I'm thinking that since I want to go to the Philippines in May, I may just look for some volunteer positions to gain working experience with children and then some part-time jobs to help pay the bills/more work experience. Anyone know of any volunteer opps?
Anyway, it's past 2am and I hurt my back a little bit while I was shoveling the snow off of my driveway, walkway and sidewalk, so I should really get some rest. I'm really excited to see Pascale tomorrow though! (and for FFFCUP reunion/pow wow this weekend)
Leave me your thoughts.
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